so....i've thought of all i will miss while in maine. and i decided to make a list. i think i already forgot a bunch, so i'll put what i can remember.


working at jans
working in fireworks
family get together
jillapalooza
seeing an angle in concert
going to some random hardcore punk show
warped tour - joan jett and thursday
maddy's birthday
patricks birthday
throwing atleast one party
lydia
Hanalei concert
jans annual bake-off
our annual 4th of july extravaganza
my sisters coming home on leave from afghanistan
going to wisconsin with the guys
getting a tattoo


with that said....i know i will still have fun in maine. and will be actually making my future set in motion...

i feel like out of me and my two older sisters that i am the first one to really start my life. jackie (the oldest) dropped college and joined the army. cassie (the other) had a baby when she was 20 and is still in college. i'm in college, but i have moved the farthest away from my mom, except for right now since i couldn't move into my house just yet. but i'm never home, i don't ask much, if anything, from my mom. i usually do everything myself. and i'm leaving the state for an internship that will open doors to the future. i don't really feel that my sisters did that. and they both worked harder in highschool to get good grades. i just feel that in comparison to how i did in high school, i have done better with my life thus far. i have a plan. my plans are constantly changing, but only by the minor details. and so far everything is going according to plan...for the most part.

so i'm going to find out tomorrow when exactly i am leaving. there is a chance i will be driving by myself. there is a chance that my dad will be driving me out there. but either way, i will be leaving very soon. the past few days, i have either wanted to just go ahead and go out there, or cancel it and stay here. i am excited to go, but i'm ready to go instead of sitting around and waiting.


oh, and i just found out that this girl i met a while ago that i thought was very cute also thinks that i'm cute. too bad i'll probably never see her again. oh well.